Friday, August 29, 2003
8/29/2003 10:03:00 PM
"Sentimentality"
I am always wondering, whether it is just me, or is it the others...
Take Elkardian for example, I was quite upset when a person who always trains with us suddenly left the guild and said he may not be playing ek anymore... I asked the rest of the guild what they felt and most of their first replies were "all his rares wasted"...
This is only a small aspect of life... ok maybe it is not exactly real life and people do not actually come in contact personally... that the real world and the virtual world is very different... but I would think small reactions like this shows what kind of person you are in real life... In this materialistic world, people treat others well when they are of some use... and when they are of no help any longer... off they go... not all people are like that... but the number is quite significant...
Many things happen online... I am starting to feel the negative effects of the internet... people abuse it... manipulating other people's trust for their own greed... scamming people of their money, items...
Is there no such thing as honour anymore? Doesn't "putting yourself in others' shoes" still stand up till today? Or is it all just part of my overly simplistic view of the world?
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
Friday, August 22, 2003
8/22/2003 09:37:00 AM
"Subside"
It is all slowly going down now... Think the resting at home for this whole past week has given me the energy to start studying again...
Throughout this whole period of time, I realised I am fortunate to have so many of my friends being so concerned over me... Alden called up immediately after he read my blog... Dear dear was always there by my side... My classmates were all very concerned when I appeared in school after a long period of absence... My form teacher was very understanding and let me off for the week...
Just think I was very stupid to even think of leaving all this behind...
Well... Just a few more days and I should be back to my normal biological clock... I am still sleeping late and waking up earlier even though I do not want to... Well I hope so...
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
Monday, August 11, 2003
8/11/2003 12:04:00 PM
"Resurfaced"
When I thought my depression had gone down, it comes back right at me again...
I always have stupid thoughts at this time, want to just leave everything behind and wander off...
To wander off I need money, which I don't, so the alternative is to wander away... into the world...
See what I mean? I always have such stupid thoughts... But I am not sure whether I can get past this phase, or will I be drowned in it forever...
Felt so damn tired this morning, decided not to go to school... Have been doing this for quite a while already... Parents are worried, dear dear is worried, teachers are worried... Even I myself am worried... Just rather die at home than die in school... Man who wants to die in school... Both literally and figuratively...
Maybe this thursday's League of Extraordinary Gentlemen can bring back my mood... Maybe Taka will sell transformers worth buying... Maybe the world will end then, then no one can say I killed myself...
Dumb.
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
Saturday, August 09, 2003
8/09/2003 10:17:00 PM
"Exhilaration"
It was our anniversary yesterday and so we went out for the day...
Man the trains were all packed with people... especially students... wished I was still at home...
We went to Heeren Annex to get some neoprints... turned out they were not really all that good...
We decided to go straight to dinner so we went to Seoul Garden at Taka... what a disappointment...
NO MORE MEAT, HARD BURNT RICE, NO MORE SAUCE, SPURTING OIL ON LOW FIRE!!!
So we got so pissed off we left... went to eat some dumplings and realised that they were actually quite good...
Hmm dear dear was quite happy she found such nice dumplings...
We went to Nike BIRD next to Shaw house and I got myself new shoes! finally... could not find my shoe size anywhere... 11.5... quite nice lah but 150 bux man... 15% off somemore...
Then we went to Far East Plaza to look at transformers haha... dear dear bought megabolt megatron for me and I bought X dimensions air military minicons... last set I was quite happy... but no more Sideways and Axer... sighz...
Saw my dear dear... she looked so tired... felt bad about making her walk so much... so we went home... when on the way we found a neoprint shop! Since our main purpose today was to get some prints... oh well might as well...
turned out they were very nice... yeah finally got a pic of us together i can look at with excellent resolution haha!
Today I did not do much... just laze around... come on it is National Day for goodness sake... Oh only went down to the columbarium to pray to my grandfather... felt sick cos it was too hot... sighz...
Now I am just so damn tired...
Nightz~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
Monday, August 04, 2003
8/04/2003 07:31:00 PM
"Repercussions"
Still had slight fever yesterday and last night... Maybe I am not resting well enough, maybe because I went out for lunch yesterday, maybe because I am still so darn down...
Went on a shopping spree yesterday and bought a Transformers clock which transfroms from a raccoon to a robot with a clock in the middle... haha just for the novelty I guess...
Tomorrow Micron Legends Shcokwave will be coming in... want to go get it but Cj doesnt seem too keen about keeping me company... and she wanted to watch a movie yesterday somemore... forget it, at most I go there myself, no trouble.
Just finished a whole Sherman's Lagoon comic book... woo 250+ pages haha at least it kept my mood up... Now starting on "Idiot's guide to Psychology"... uh huh I am an idiot yah... anywayz just wanted to do some backgroud research before I plunge deep into this course in University... and it makes me a better interviewee haha...
ciaoz~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious