Friday, January 14, 2005
1/14/2005 01:04:00 AM
"Acclimatized"
Life is moving at a steady pace...
Neither is it slow nor fast...
I wish it could be faster...
Alright. You don't hear me complaining as much anymore. I have finally organised all my work and came up with a checklist of what to do every month. To think I used to only plan for the week or even just the day >.> Gah. It pays to be organised and meticulous.
Settled some problems in my relationship. Well I do hope they are settled. Don't really want to surface them again. It was really horrible vomitting and thinking about all these at the same time. I am not ready to give it up yet. Maybe I never will be. Then again I may never ever need to. Really makes me think about what I criticise others about. Like why people break up so easily. Why people can get divorced. What are promises? What is hope? Does it lie in my heart or my soul? I actually said yes the first time. I did it quite readily. Not that I want to give it all up but rather I gave in. I.. just hope that she is happy. Of course it is best that she will be by my side. 天下无不散之宴席。。。 I always put up a brave front.
As for me...
Well...
We shall wait and see.
I have grown older. I think even more (which may not be a good thing), yet I have learnt not to think too much. I have learnt to sacrifice. I have felt pain. Great pain, but I smile at the end of the day.
~fin~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious