Tuesday, July 25, 2006
7/25/2006 01:21:00 AM
"Kiss"
~dreaming of kissing a stranger
interesting how doing a search online about the significance of this brought up some ideas
1. i long for closeness and intimacy in my life
2. i need to get acquainted with a certain aspect of my life that i am not aware of
3. there's a need to conquer (huh?)
4. it's one of those dreams that i usually have which foretell an exact scene in the future
...and to think i woke up thinking it was the next day already
i have totally lost all sense of time.
~fin~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
Friday, July 07, 2006
7/07/2006 03:25:00 PM
"Zoo"
weeeeeeeee~! zooooooooo~!
haven't gone out with her in a long long time!
happy happy~! XD
next week we go swimming :3
~fin~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
7/04/2006 10:56:00 PM
"Elixir"
that was soooo heavenly~
chocolixir from godiva was totally worth the petrol, the $3 carpark fee, the $2 train ride and the long drive to town from choa chu kang
made me soooo high and filled me with euphoria~
oh man, i found an alternative to alcohol for when i am depressed...
i think all of us were looking for something to cheer ourselves up
after visiting wing khum and had a bout of awkward silence as usual
i actually felt happy for her whenever i am there
always want to say a lot of things but somehow when i get there
it's so... peaceful that i don't need to say anything
i will just look at her and smile
it just feels like everything will work out in the end
that everything will be fine again
~fin~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
Monday, July 03, 2006
7/03/2006 08:56:00 PM
"Hmmm."
i know i am slow but...
smallville season 5 episode 12 really made me cry...
not tear... but cry.
~fin~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
"Detox"
it's time to try to get back to a more organised life
FF detox for 5 days regime start~!
i went to east coast to cycle with huixian, zuzhao and his siblings
now my cheeks, nose and forehead are red from the sun ; ;
feel so good after the workout though! feels so good to be in the hot sun again~
no matter how lame you are, i still <3 you and your family :D
well the best way to forgot about one thing is to move on to another!
gonna try to move full time to my laptop for this week
got my music, internet, MSN and even installed Diablo 2 here so i should be fine^^
everyday --> FF + eat + sleep = depressing
should really start to dig out some textbooks to read up on psychology
tomorrow i'm going to try to make my way down to choa chu kang columbarium with tim and lix
her birthday's this month... and i haven't visited her in a loooong time
since tim is finally in town, i guess why not take this chance to go down
i am the closest to her in 02s11 i guess^^
...yes it's part of detox regime!
wanted to go swimming on wed but the car is gone~
stupid car giving me so many problems zzzz
see how, maybe jio zuzhao go swimming at the stadium
thursday evening is dinner with friends and superman~
yay teresa long time no see^^
friday maybe go kayaking :3
need to get more tan~
...and try to lose more weight^^ because i realise that my weight is going back up to before BMT ; ;
even though part of that are muscles now but still.... hee hee
as long as i am confident about myself i'm fine^^
...both looks and abilities la :P
thinking of going back to the hougang street 11 care centre to volunteer to take care of kids again
hmmm will see how when i start school and get my time table
mood: super optimistic!
seratonins anyone?
~fin~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
"Disorientation"
it feels like i'm really really smart and dumb at the same time!
i always know what i want, how to get it and how to keep it
but little things will pop up along the way and distract me
making me lose focus on the big picture...
even if the small things aren't related to the bigger thing at all
i just get so caught up trying to solve everything at once that it overwhelms me sometimes
i still have yet to find a place to totally clear my mind
i long for grassy fields or a giant glass window on my ceiling
...so that i can gaze at the stars and immerse myself in their infinite aura
no matter how many times i say i can survive alone
no matter how hard my heart has become
no matter how difficult it is for me to shed tears anymore
i still long for companionship.
...but no matter how strong i am
i still cower in the face of relationships.
~fin~
transient dreamer.~`unconscious
